This post will be long and boring to most but I don't care.
I went to Florida last week with part of my family.I enjoyed myself because I was with them not because what we were doing. There were fun parts. Julia and I had some time to our selves the last two days. We had fun and enjoyed each other.It was a long and tiring trip home. Julia slept allot and that gave me allot of time to think. I don't like it when I have time to think. Coming through Kentucky I turned to a bluegrass station and was listening to some of the music. Julia thought I was nuts but it reminded me of my dad and how much I miss him. My dad wasn't a great dad and I don't remember ever doing much with him. We would go to Findley Market as a family or at one time we sold fruits and vegetables door to door. We went to Coney Island when I was real little but I don't know if he was there. When I was young I remember going fishing at paylakes with him and my older brothers but I was nomally with my mom. My dad drank allot but I don't remember him being drunk. He would take us to the bar with him and we would play the bowling game while him and Oris or Mel would sit and drink. Later after mom and dad separated I didn't see much of him until they briefly got back together. After that dad moved close to mom and I would see him every week. Until the day he died I never missed going to see him. My girls would go with me allot and still remember some of the odd things he would do.
I went to visit my mom's grave about three weeks ago. It was the first time I had been there since she died. It just hurt to much to go. I miss her even more then my dad because I was around her and was so loved by her.When Deb and I got married we lived above my mother in her house until we bought our own house. Still after we moved we would go as a family most of the time or I would go myself to see her. While there I would always walk up to see my dad since he lived real close to her. Every week for forty years I would go see my mom at least once a week sometimes more in the later years. We had so much in common to talk about because we learned to like the same things as the other and always had something to talk about. Ther was never a time that I missed more then three weeks without seeing her.I wish it were like that with my children but we don't talk and have no common interests.
David is still in Florida with Kevin and Cheryl and I miss him so much. We don't talk either but at least he is here some times. He keeps us busy but at least I don't have time for my mind to wander. I've been sick and off work for the last two days but hope to go back tonight. Adam is here with me and is getting allot of the work done that I can't do myself. I've stopped looking at auctions since I have been back from vacation but now have nothing to keep my mind occupied. At least we will save a ton of money while I slowly go crazy. I have some decent photos from our vacation but don't have the energy to post them. Maybe Julia will do some when she gets home.
I need to go get something to eat since I haven't felt like eating for a couple of days. Still don't but I will force myself so I can go back to work. Thanks for listening to a sad, sick and tired old man. Bye Bye
This is early Friday on the deck with Destiny.
